Wednesday, May 18, 2005

It's weird

I want to be a runner.

That's not weird.

The weird thing is that I actually hate running. So far, anyway. It make my knees and lungs ache. It makes me feel like a bit of a dope as I pound the hard pavement 6 feet below my head. But that's exactly what I'm doing.

So why do I run?

I'm still trying to figure out a good answer for that one. The deep desire to "be a runner" is certainly motivating enough right now. I want to be healthy. I want to take advantage of this beautiful spring we're experiencing. Well, I pretend. :)
I'm doing this run/walk program right now, where each week I run more and walk less, and eventually I'll be able to run a marathon or something. Well, maybe not quite.

I'm learning very quickly that running--or any challenge, really--is SO MUCH mind over matter. If I know I have to run a certain number of minutes before I can walk again, my mind prepares my body for that. However, if I start running with no "number of minutes" goal in my head, I can't make it half that distance. It's weird.

I'm hoping to eventually be able to say that I love running. If nothing else in this grand new excursion of mine, I do love my running shoes.


-Lisa- said...

Wow... that is interesting, how you can hate running, but really want to be a runner.
i hate running too, and really don't want to be a runner. can you be an elipticalizer? hmm... that's not a word, but i do like the eliptical machines at the club. it's a lot less hard on my fragile knees. they haven't been the same since my ice skating accident a year and a half ago. there's this little piece of cartilidge that i can move around in my knee. kinda gross... just thought i'd share that with ya! :) ha, i need some new running shoes, but i just haven't been able to find any that fit well and are appealing. i should put fashion to the side on this, but i hate ugly shoes! :) anyways... i'll leave it at that! bye

gloria said...

I laughed!
I love that you love your shoes!
I love that you are pressing into something new and hard and desired.
I wanted to be a runner this spring and summer too - but then I got pregnant and then I only wanted to be a sleeper - maybe next summer!